Giving Myself a Break...
Learning to be gentle with myself!
“And some days I forget, what it is to be gentle with myself - how to look at myself with kind eyes and speak to myself with soft words. Forget that I am my home and a temple worthy of worship.” Becca Lee
There are some days when I forget. In fact there are lots of days when I forget. Forget that I am just me, just a human being - living with a chronic illness - but expecting, nevertheless, to move mountains everyday. And boy, do I give myself a hard time when I don’t live up to my unrealistic expectations!
‘For goodness sake, it’s the middle of September already and what exactly have you achieved?” demands that figure looking back at me from the mirror… “Your to-do list isn’t getting any shorter, in fact you keep adding to it, and as for work, well, you haven’t achieved much have you…? the accusatory voice continues.
And yet, when I stopped berating myself this morning, and actually took stock for a few minutes, well, it’s surprising how a doing a ‘little something’ each day mounts up…
There is the small matter of reviewing the work; deciding what’s good/bad/indifferent, but, seeing the pile of paper pinned to the board, well, let’s just say, it gave me hope, along with the dawning realisation that I am being way too hard on myself. I need to remember to speak softly to myself…
And, it’s every day, doing small things such as this…
…things that, at the time, seem nothing more than ‘foolish doodling experimenting etc’, but that have resulted in quite a pile of work!
‘Sometimes, I’m Too Hard On Myself (April 27th, 2021)
I’m setting myself too many damn deadlines! I need to relax with laughter and wine. Things will take care of themselves, if I go With the flow, and allow thought-seeds to grow Organically. After all, Rome wasn’t Built in a day! One’s work should be pleasant, And not too tasking, otherwise things start To decline. Between the head and the heart,
Life’s a continual balance. One needs To rest, at times, to achieve one’s bold dreams.”
Dominic Windram
I shall endeavour, for the remainder of September, to be kind to myself, to do a ‘little something’ every day, and see where that gets me by the end of the month!
Catch up with my progress in the next post!! Until then, happy creating!
Beautiful!